Tale of the Review of the Daily Summation

I'm wondering if you always have to be suffering to be a good artist. I, actually, know the answer to this, but sometimes the question arises when I'm not creating. Usually I'm not creating when I'm enjoying my life, and enjoying one's life seems to get in the way of artistic creation. Even so, there's always the tug of “I”m not writing” when I'm enjoying, so I stop enjoying periodically until the writing has been achieved.

I've never published anything except this blog, but I consider myself a potential writer.

I'm making a choice now to diverge from simple, straigtforward blogging to a chosen topic under anonymous pretentions. Keep the name blog, jonsalkin.com for promoting me, but have a blog set up under a pseudonymn, without photos of self, purely devoted to writing.. That seems to be the way to go. Leave the photos for the actor-promotion.

Next: Osama may be dead... maybe not. Pakistani president Musharraff was interviewed on 60 minutes, but I wasn't listening as I read my email.

Closer to home: The wife and I re-organized the apartment, put up pictures, did laundry, and rested so nicely after long Manhattan commutes to the banking Bear. What a simple way to achieve peace. Clearing the cobwebs from the undusted soul, not to mention cleaning out one of my inbox's 200+ unread emails.

I'm making a decision to take a job that pays half of what I make now, but the potential with what I can learn is what draws me to the position. This company doesn't hire just anyone, and I have my foot in the door. If I'm going to go in the direction of survival jobs, this is the company I'd want to work for, having a basis in the creative and technical. I'm being vague, but it's a financial and spousal dilemma. The part-time hours will overlap the $20/hr corporate bank hours, taking away rent and bill payments. I'd work from 7/9pm to 2/3am, opposite of my wife's schedule.

A lot of negatives, but the potential of the job made me immediately say yes.

I hope it's the right decision. It'll be a struggle, unless we get our delayed tax refunds back soon. If that happens, at least we won't have to worry for a while, I can train, thrive, and impress and eventually get more money and better hours.

The script says, yes, I am willing to do it because I truly believe in the product and the company's philosophy. Funny what one has to do to get by.

The time will come when I get paid for passion, and that day will be soon...er or later.